world on fire

straight up real talk..I don't care who reads this or anything..
"but he's turned into such a jerk, im kinda disgusted with myself for even considering a friendship with the guy that he's turned into."

OKAY, YES... I AM A JERK..
if i look back from grade 8 to now.. jesus...
what a difference,
I mean... im different
i used to be the biggest pushover out of all pushovers and in a sense i still am..
BUT just because i act a certain way shouldn't "classify" me as the type of person I am..
sure my morals and ideals n all that changed..
like fuck i started to smoke weed over this summer.. like straight up no lie
ive lost my faith in a sense with God.. like i still love God and believe in him
but what happened with my Uncles recently and seeing its effect on my family is heartbreaking at the least..
If i stayed the same then that would scare me..
honestly ive changed these past few years..
the things ive done, the things I did, the things that I WILL do
are all gonna help me bring into perspective who I really am as a person..
because even though I do act like a jerk or whatever you wanna call "me" as..
im still that loving kid who can listen to any ones problems, situations, or whatever,
im still that kid who will be that shoulder you can lean on during those rough times in our lives,
im still that kid who loves rap music.. especially Kanye West... remember Jade n Rona?
HAHA shiit good times, but I know who I am deep down inside... and if you wanna call me jerk n what ive become then go ahead.
who am I to stop you from thinking that?
its your opinion..
you were part of my life for 3 years...
shiiit 3 years.. that's a pretty long time.
and your still part of my life cuz honestly, im not gonna forget you..
the things you've taught me
the things you've done for me
just im not gonna forget YOU!
because you've been an influential person in my life,
and without you being there those 3 years who knows what Id be right now..
so even though im a "jerk" to you,
im saying thank you for everything.
whatever happened between us happened and like im glad,
because i wouldn't be where Im at right now if things happened differently,
and im glad things happened the way the did cuz im pretty gosh darn satisfied with my life,
I got dope loving family,
I got my homies, my boys n girls who've been there since day 1.
I got my Girl:) Mauryn who im so glad I got the privilege to meet in my life and that I have the honor of being your being your Boyfriend! laaaavv yeah you yag! :)
and just all them small things that i take for granted everyday..
im not gonna live regretting decisions i should have made cuz
fuck that.. I made them, i don't got no time machine to go back in time..
so whatever just live life...


hope you enjoyed that long rant of spelling errors, and HORRIBLE punctuation mistakes..
i prob contradicted myself somewhere in there and made myself sound so stupid or something
but you know what I mean... well i hope you guys do!


K SOO TODAY!
shiiit soccer all day

Pender Harbour:
crazy game... 0-0 won 3-1 on PKS
I pulled of some sort of miracle and saved 3/4 penalty shots

Fraser Academy:
chilled game, won 6-0
good job boys, we just need 1 win out of 2 games tomorrow...
WE GOT THIS TISH!

oh hey.. btw... PEACE STM!
get the faaaaccck out of gym..
Sr girls came back from 0-2 down to kill it 3-2..
shiiit good game, good job ladies!

anyways, thanks for reading this far you guys!
ill stop by telling you to listen to this crazy trance/techno song.
Live For Music - DJ Shog
love you guys!
PEACE