JUST TO BE!

Encounter XXIX...
I wish i could talk about it but i cant..
you know its basically what robin said on his blog,
learned so much about myself, others, and GOD..
thanks brothers for the amazing experience
i love all you guys from the bottom of my heart,
thanks for the amazing weekend!
if you guys need anything im always here!
"JUST TO BE IS A SINGBLESS!"

now is back to school, English essay, french oral, ce essay, catch up in history?
shiit so much, but its time to get focused and kill school!
basketball starts Wednesday, okay!
here we go time to get back in shape and kill it on the boards and on defence.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEETIT!

its was a good run,
but the season is over.
Lost 2-0 to Pemberton
Lost 2-1 to WPGA, heartbreak in last minute of the game... faaaack

thanks boys for the year, its been pretty dope playing with all you guys
much love!

now its time to move on to ball.. faaack its gonna be a good year!

plans for today?
prob just gonna chill at home and rest, im so bruised and sore..
or imma go watch a movies n chill or something.. depends on how i feel.

encounter this weekend!
faaack im scared man.
but lets kill it!

Carly Rae Jepson is so cute, shooooot!
TUG OF WAR!

world on fire

straight up real talk..I don't care who reads this or anything..
"but he's turned into such a jerk, im kinda disgusted with myself for even considering a friendship with the guy that he's turned into."

OKAY, YES... I AM A JERK..
if i look back from grade 8 to now.. jesus...
what a difference,
I mean... im different
i used to be the biggest pushover out of all pushovers and in a sense i still am..
BUT just because i act a certain way shouldn't "classify" me as the type of person I am..
sure my morals and ideals n all that changed..
like fuck i started to smoke weed over this summer.. like straight up no lie
ive lost my faith in a sense with God.. like i still love God and believe in him
but what happened with my Uncles recently and seeing its effect on my family is heartbreaking at the least..
If i stayed the same then that would scare me..
honestly ive changed these past few years..
the things ive done, the things I did, the things that I WILL do
are all gonna help me bring into perspective who I really am as a person..
because even though I do act like a jerk or whatever you wanna call "me" as..
im still that loving kid who can listen to any ones problems, situations, or whatever,
im still that kid who will be that shoulder you can lean on during those rough times in our lives,
im still that kid who loves rap music.. especially Kanye West... remember Jade n Rona?
HAHA shiit good times, but I know who I am deep down inside... and if you wanna call me jerk n what ive become then go ahead.
who am I to stop you from thinking that?
its your opinion..
you were part of my life for 3 years...
shiiit 3 years.. that's a pretty long time.
and your still part of my life cuz honestly, im not gonna forget you..
the things you've taught me
the things you've done for me
just im not gonna forget YOU!
because you've been an influential person in my life,
and without you being there those 3 years who knows what Id be right now..
so even though im a "jerk" to you,
im saying thank you for everything.
whatever happened between us happened and like im glad,
because i wouldn't be where Im at right now if things happened differently,
and im glad things happened the way the did cuz im pretty gosh darn satisfied with my life,
I got dope loving family,
I got my homies, my boys n girls who've been there since day 1.
I got my Girl:) Mauryn who im so glad I got the privilege to meet in my life and that I have the honor of being your being your Boyfriend! laaaavv yeah you yag! :)
and just all them small things that i take for granted everyday..
im not gonna live regretting decisions i should have made cuz
fuck that.. I made them, i don't got no time machine to go back in time..
so whatever just live life...


hope you enjoyed that long rant of spelling errors, and HORRIBLE punctuation mistakes..
i prob contradicted myself somewhere in there and made myself sound so stupid or something
but you know what I mean... well i hope you guys do!


K SOO TODAY!
shiiit soccer all day

Pender Harbour:
crazy game... 0-0 won 3-1 on PKS
I pulled of some sort of miracle and saved 3/4 penalty shots

Fraser Academy:
chilled game, won 6-0
good job boys, we just need 1 win out of 2 games tomorrow...
WE GOT THIS TISH!

oh hey.. btw... PEACE STM!
get the faaaaccck out of gym..
Sr girls came back from 0-2 down to kill it 3-2..
shiiit good game, good job ladies!

anyways, thanks for reading this far you guys!
ill stop by telling you to listen to this crazy trance/techno song.
Live For Music - DJ Shog
love you guys!
PEACE

valediction

no school tomorrow.
game vs pender harbour at 10am
game vs Waldorf at 1pm
we haven't won a game in 2 years.. and we have to win 2 straight to qualify for final 4.
we can do this, i have faith.

im frustrated as FUCK
encounter is this weekend right?
well on saturday i have a provincial qualifying game... at 4pm
and i have to be there, im the only goalie.
so wtf do I do?
shiit this is so yag.
if i can just get out for like 3 hours..
faaaaaack

done

it starts now,
time to get my head into the game.
I need to show up tomorrow..
mind and all,
ready
to
kill
it..!

bodwell.. your gonna get rocked.

shine blockas!

missed out on paranormal activity cuz of my rents...
shiit, heard it was good?
fuuuuccccccckkk, its all good though
spent some good quality time with mauryn.. n denise HAHA
amityville horror? that shit is weak!

this week has been a struggle to say the least,
another family member passed away
sad, depressed faces around my house..
its been hard to take.
the fact that Ive been considering questioning my faith has been rough,
i know its all part of Gods plan and things happen for a reason,
it just breaks my heart to see my parents n family like this.

School was hella easy this week,
1 a and 1 b on my french quizzes
aced my history test (according to katie vickers)
handed in all my homework on time.. like it should be
so its going alright

im supposed to work today... but its my last day at ON
and i got a soccer game at 230..
so fuck ON
not even gonna call or anything, not like it matters.
what are they gonna say? im already quitting.
plus i need to get myself ready for Monday and Wednesday
lower mainlands... shit need to win 2 out of 3 games those 2 days.
lets kill it!

plan for today?
soccer till 4
dinner with family
then tees, OI MESH gonna kill you all in poker.

kicks open

work all weekend long = no outside life...
fuck i missed out on so much shit... wtf
peace ON your store looks like shit!
total money made this weekend: $163.98
hollllaa, saving up!

MIGHT still be able to go to tiesto.. if i work.
easy shit, can get in the back door, Wade ur the shit if you can get me in mayne.

soccer this week, Windermere.. watch us please? :)
basketball starting soon, cant wait to get back in shape and get buff in the weight room HAHAHA

so its thankgiving today and i just wanna say to everyone,
thanks for being there for me through the past couple years
means alot, lets kill this year up and enjoy it while we can
so thankfull to have friends like you guys.
much love

and to baby boo, happy 4 months luuuvvv, so thankfull for everything! (:

im sprung

fuckk not again :(
why is God doing this shit to me,
its like tormenting me forsho.
but DAMN i was like... WOW, pretty damn speechless.
but still, shiit...
AHHHH

work all weekend..
peace to me. $200 this weekend though!
almost at 2k in new chequing account, dope.

fuck erika david is the shiit, party in the usa cover.

im dead, my english prompt SUCKS.
Im usually pretty good at narratives but this one just shitted the bed.
i sware im pretty good at this shit
WTF happend, maybe cuz i rushed? and blabled on about bullshit?
fuck, nannery is gonna think im a dumbass.
FUCK
i still got to study for french
FUCK...
fuck it whatever it doesnt count for marks so fuck it, its just to see where we are at!
plus my computer is so fucked up it fucked up the spacing of my paragraphs... gg


work tomorrow 5-10
work Saturday 1-7
work sunday 1-7
finally gonna hand in resignation from fucking ON.. hope the store looked like shit when the inspectors came in on monday!

peace im out, i need to sleep i went to school 2 hours late today... GG

ushers back

spitting that fire!

thaa groove

im fucking sick as a mofucka.
celtics 0-3 templeton
had that shit
hit the crossbar twice. FUCK

just woke up half an hour ago.
i feel so drugged up.
so much medication.
tea is the shit btw.

your working right now... thats so gay
stupid timmy hoes.. (:
have fun baking breads and donuts HAHAHA

fuck english homework, ill do that shit later
gonna play some UFC, thanks ed man.
PEACE

stress

ON looks so diffrent. holy
so lucky i stayed in the back doing accessory run backs.
then was put in fits for an hour.
DOPE
work was sooooo busy n shiit.
was so dead at the end, all of us didint even want to color code and size code n shiit, so we slacked off closing hour.

yeee ahh shit Favourite Girl - Marques Houston.
listen to that tish all the way from richmond to tito robs house with yaahh and my pink headphones are the shiitt! your just jealous you yag (:

finnaly got to ride the canada line.. shitt its pretty dope.

so soccer tomorrow vs temp
LETS KILL IT
then soccer x2 on wed,
soccer at tech, or work at ON on wedensday.... hmmmmmmmmm
soccerx2 thursday
work at Parking Dept Friday
Work at ON Saturday..
shiiit so busy this week.
frick ):
sad face yo!

30 days left holllllllaaaaa!

i get paper

October is so busy... holy shit
I got work on Sunday 1-7 at ON
handing in my resignation that day to effective October 11Th.
Soccer every day next week.
Work on the 9Th and Parking Dept.
then work on the 10Th 1-7 at ON
AND AGAIN
soccer every day following week..
jesus plus more October shifts for Parking Dept tba...

expected income for October? hopefully over $400.. but prob less.
gonna be chill today, planning on chilling with the family till after dinner
then head out with mauryn n Denise maybe
then drink drink drink.. hopefully.
peace I'm out, got soccer in an hour.

"love is about being cute and
stupid. not being in bed together."

lean on me!

just smiles all around tonight (:
reading your blog just put a smile on my face!
i wont even be able to sleep tonight!
THANKS ALOT!
:)

"but girl youve been my sunshine
when all my clouds were gray"